Opa Vegan Style!

So my roommate who is a vegan asked me to do her nails. This is the outcome

22.05. dream

Sākumā notika fizioloģijas nodarbība. Mēs visi sēdējām telpā, gatavi sākt stāstīt savus jautājumus. Pasniedzējs rīkojās sev netipiski – viņš lika visu novākt, paņemt lapiņas un teica, ka šoreiz mēs nevrēsim izmantot špikerus. Kā arī viņš piebilde “Un īpašu uzmanību veltīsim Sandrai un A, jo viņas ir mūsu universitatē ļoti labas špikotājas”. Mēs protams sacēlām traci, jautājot, kas to teicis. Izrādās, tas bija mans mikrobioloģijas pasniedzējs (bet, kā izrādās, viņš bija pārsteigts un apbrīnoja manu špikošanas izveicību, fizio pasniedzējs teica, lai es atklāju, kā to daru, bet es to ignorēju, jo noslēpums taču ir jāglabā).

Pč nodarbības es, La, M un citi nezināmi cilvēki braucām prom no manas pilsētas. Ielas pretējā pusē, tieši pretī manai vecvecāku mājai, stāvēja kāds stopētājs. Pamanot, ka tas ir Kiss solists, es sāku raustīt Lauru, sakot, lai viņa paskatās pa logu. Tajā brīdī autobuss sāka celties gaisā, Laura izvilka telefonu, nofotografēja to un ietwītoja bildi ar teikumu “Rau ko mēs tagad redzam!”.

Pēc šī nelielā lidojuma mēs nonācām Parīzē. Tur bij kāda lauku sētas vieta, ļoti saulaina, skaista, viss zaļoja. Mēs pamanījām mazu čūsku, ko es centos nobildēt. Bet tai čūskai bija 4 kājas un suņa galva, tai nepatika fotografēšana un viņa visu laiku centās man iekost. Vienā brīdi kaut kas notika un Monta nonāca slimnīcā, komā. Es biju izmisusi un jutos tik slikti. Pienākot ārstei, mēs jautājām, kas ar viņu varētu būt noticis. ārste parastīja plecus un atbildēja, ka tagad ir jāveic dialīze. Viņa iedūra M mazajā, bālajā rociņā ar plastmasas trubiņu, lika man turēt trubiņu vietā. Kamēr notika procedūra, es sēdu tur, spiežot M roku, lai viņa zinātu, ka esmu tur. Un vienā brīdī viņa man atbildēja arī saspiežot manu roku savā. Tajā brīdī ārste pateica “Man liekas, ka viņa ir stāvoklī”.

No palātas izgāja visi cilvēki, tai skaitā es. Mēs pēkšņi bijām kautkādā koncertā, kur uzstājās Emilie Autumn un citas dziedātājas, kas bija viņai ļoti līdzīgas. Arī Ar no manas grupas tur bija. Tajā brīdī mēs sākām skriet prom, jo kavējām savu lidmašīnu. mums bija 20 min līdz tai, un vārti atradās ļoti tālu. Mēs skrējām caur slimnīcu, mums pakaļ sāka skriet kāds vīrietis, kas stūma daudz metāla krēslu, radot ļoti nepatīkamu skaņu. Ieskrienot kādās durvis, mēs atradāmies vietā ar daudz cilvēkiem. Tālumā ceļš zarojās un es ar k’du puisi skrējām pa labo eju. Aiz mums bija Laura. Sapratām, ka eja nav īstā, bet mēs nevarējām pagriesties atpakaļ, jo gaitenis bija spirālveidā uz leju, mēs slīdējām. Sākās panika, es mēģināju apstāties, bet tas nebija iespējams. Puisis skreja/slīdēja ātrāk par mani, un pazuda no redzeslauka. Un tad es dzirdēju kā viņš kautkur ietriecas. Tikmēr La uzradās man blakus, viņa nevis skrēja, bet sēdot uz krēsla slīdēja un spiedza.

Nesaprotamā veidā mēs nonācām Singapūrā, kur es ļoti apņēmīgi gribēju satikt N. Vieta bija neizsakāmi skaista, bet es nemanīju nevienu cilvēku. Tāpēc nesatiekoties ar viņu es uzreiz iekāpu lidmašīnā, un lidojot prom pavērās lielisks skats uz mēnesnīcas apspīdēto Eifeļa torni.

 

Kā izteicās L un M, es visiticamāk lietoju narkotkas, ja jau redzu šādus sapņus. M apgalvojums bija, ka es noteikti apēdu 0.5 kg sēnīšu…

 

Un man ir pieraksts pie psihiatra. Tieši laikā, kad man būs nauda.

Nothing makes sense

Reblogged from My Bright Shining Star:

Once again I wake up to pain that is unbearable. The realization that Kaitlyn deliberately took her beautiful light and self away from us all hits me with the weight of the world. I cannot describe the pain that a mother feels when their child takes their own life. It’s a pain I never thought possible. I always thought that if I lost one of my children, it would hurt so bad I would simply lay down and die.

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Summertime sadness

“Mēs esam kā ķērpis. Es sēne, tu – aļģe.” Lieliska simbioze. Katrs dabū to, ko vajag, lai izdzīvotu. Bet dzīvošanai ar to nepietiek. Es sāku izdegt, lēnām un mokoši. Sāk apnikt viss, kas notiek un nenotiek.

Un vispār, es gribētu lai viņš uzraksta. Tas būtu ļoti, ļoti neveikli. Un es nezinu, ko es no tā gribētu iegūt, bet tas awkward nekas, kas ir tagad ir šausmīgs.

Pēdējo reizi psihosomatikas klīnika ar mani sazinājās pirms nedēļas. Es nepaspēju laicīgi atbildēt uz zvanu, jo bija nodarbība, un iespejamie laiki tika iedoti citiem cilvēkiem. Man atkal jāgaida.

 

 

18.05.

I wanna be the very best, like no one ever was!

Well, what can I say… Pokemon!

Sunrise Avenue and all the rest

On the 10th of May Sunrise Avenu was in Latvia. Of course I had to go, I just knew that by not going I would regret it a lot. And as noone I know likes this group, I went alone. And here I am a bit shocked. I don’t know why but most people whom I told abut going alone were really shocked. As if it is something strange to just go and enjoy doing things on your own. I have no problems going to the cinema or concert alone.

So the concert was just amazing. The band is so great. One more reason to like Finland (hah, I have way too many reasons to like it already. A bit more and I might just someday wave good-bye to Latvia and move there). I did have problems finding the place but it’s just me and my dislike for maps. Good thing I can always use a friend as a GPS system

After the concert I had arranged with V to go to clubs. We met in the old Riga, went to eat (it seems to turn in some habit of mine. No drinking with empty stomach. And yesterday I found out that it was a kind of a good thing I kept it). We went to have a look at one of her favorite bars but it was filled and there was no karaoke evening. So I sent sms to La asking if by any chance she was out. As she had told me previously that she and G would spend night at home, studying, there was a little chance of that. But I had to try. After few minutes I received answer: “Yo, alaa, te ir visi”.  So Ala it was. And I had no idea what she meant by everyone. Upon arriving I understood. I met Li and Mo – girl from her room. A bit of screaming, hugging and finding out that also A is somewhere picking up guys. Finding La was fun. First we ran into Jagermeister girls, getting free shots. And then we noticed La and G, had a quick chat. Also V was there, with some girl. And then Z came, them Ma (girl from Li group) and two guys I didn’t know.

Getting beer was fun. While I was deciding what to get Z came from behind and hugged me “unintentionally” touching my breasts. I got so angry. And somehow I decided that  has to buy beer for me as an apology. Yay, free beer! At some point during the evening I did tell Ma that I think of myself as bisexual, that I have been with a girl and other tings you really don’t want your fellow students and people you meet for the first time to know. Well but all that is nothing, considering that I might have kissed her later outside… (wtf Sandra, wtf!?) We also went with V for a moment to Pulkvedim neviens neraksta (too crowded, me not likey such dancing). At about 3am we left ad headed to dorms. It was raining cats and dogs, but who cares? Amazing evening and night overall.

And after some time came Monday. Finally I had my appointment for fibrogastroscopy. I arrived early, waited patiently. My biggest worry was anesthesia. That hospital did it with it and I was certain I didn’t want to have it. Thankfully the anesthesiologist agreed with me it was no point in doing that so I was asked to lay down and medication was sprayed in my mouth. My tongue became senseless, it was difficult to swallow. My doctor came in, asked if I had had this procedure previously, as I seemed really confident ad not scared. Nope, my first time. A weird thing was put in my mouth and then she took the endoscope. Holy s… That will go down my throat? Are you kidding me? She put it in and told to swallow. It going in felt weird but it was not painful at all. And then she started blowing air in my gastrointestinal tract – the fun part. You cannot control the air in your tract so basically you start having really loud burps. To make it even more fun, tears also come from your eyes, as there is irritation from air and endoscope. And you also produce A LOT of saliva that starts pouring out from your mouth, as it is open and you cannot swallow it. I must have looked so sexy! They took two biopsies and it was over. 10 minutes tops.

I had to wait few minutes for the results. Nothing pleasing, but at least I now know why I had those terrible pains in the last few months. Worst part is that it is not suggested for me to use wine or beer, only strong drinks like vodka, in case I want to drink. Now I will feel bad by finishing the bottles in my fridge :/ Oh, and it turns out that G also had the same procedure n Monday. We were saliva buddies he had the same reaction to procedure and he also had uncontrollable laughter tat made doctors laugh as well

Watermelons

When you have nothing to do at 2 am, you can always do your roommate’s nails. The result is a bit uneven (shaking hands..) but it looks nice if you look at them from a distance

 

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